THE FUNNY BONE

Is there anybody on the planet who has never hit their funny bone?  Little bitty children are still kinda gooey and soft on the inside so it feels ‘funny’ when it happens to them. Bigger kids freak out. It hurts! It tingles! It feels like no other pain they have ever known. It can even be scary for them. Over time we all learn that when out of the blue your funny bone goes off the best thing to do is just relax. The sensations keep coming but they aren’t so intense and painful

Last week I hit my funny bone.  Not my real one but a ‘grown up’ funny bone.  The world was doing its thing – being the world.  Everybody and everything was spinning in a natural way.  What was happening out there really and truly had very little to do with me.  Nothing Personal.  Then BINGO! The funny bone was struck and I felt huge intense painful sensations throughout my body.  This time it came as anger and frustration.  It came from one moment to the next.  I didn’t see it coming .  It was a shock and it was overwhelming.  It surged through me until it climaxed and then  like hitting my real funny bone I instinctively began to let go  and it dissipated.

Of course, it doesn’t always feel like anger.  A word or a look can send off the tingles of my jealousy or resentment.  Or something doesn’t go exactly as I anticipated and I reverberate with self pity or the blues.  From my experience there are all kinds oF EMOTIONAL funny bones that get hit when I least expect it.

It seems the older I get the less I happen to hit my funny bone.  Even my grown up one doesn’t sneak up and zap me as often as in my younger years. I don’t know why that is?  Hitting my emotional grown up funny bone is especially confusing and unwanted no matter how infrequently it rocks me.

Lately I’m dreaming that maybe I can get softer and ‘gooey’ like the toddlers who still have a FUNNY funny bone.  Maybe, just maybe I can let the world do its thing and instead of reacting with pain and any emotion that racks my body I can trust and let go.  Let the funny bone do ITS thing and I will simply flow  along.  The funny bone has gotta do what a funny bone does.  I gotta let it and then find the ‘funny’ in that bone that makes my life sweet and happy.